Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that my life would change as much and as fast as it has in the last several months. On June 1st, I was blessed to give birth to my baby boy, Jon. He was six weeks early and spent 16 days in the NICU. My water broke on May 30. I didn’t really know what was happening until I drove myself to the hospital where they examined me and ultimately admitted me. I was not prepared at all. The day prior I was busy coordinating my maternity shoot (which never happened). I didn’t even have my hospital bag packed. Nevertheless, those things eventually became so unimportant as I found myself in the hospital room ready to give birth. I was blessed with great medical care and nurses. My entire labor and delivery took about five hours. What came afterwards though would prove to be even more challenging. Once I was discharged from the hospital, I left without my baby which was very hard to do. Luckily, I live four minutes from the hospital so I traveled back and forth every day for sixteen days to see and feed my preemie. I pushed through this time with minimal sleep and barely ate. I never had time to let my body recuperate. In retrospect, it’s amazing to see how strong my physical body was and is. I was able bounce back quickly after delivery. I was able to walk, drive and move into a new house with very little pain. I had one goal in mind, to get my baby healthy enough to progress through his time in the NICU with flying colors, which he did. He rocked the NICU like a boss. Now he’s home and is a healthy 8 lbs. 3 ounces (almost double his birth weight). I feel so lucky and blessed to have the help of my parents, family and daddy.
Soon I have to go back to work, back to normal life. It’s a bittersweet feeling. I’m sure I will have loads of daily “mom guilt.” As I move forward, I will put my trust in God and the universe to do its thing. One lesson I learned through all of this…you can plan all day and night, but there are some things you cannot control, so let go…once you do, something magical always happens. Here’s to motherhood! I’m looking forward to this new chapter in my life, meeting and making new mommy friends and mostly caring for my new baby boy, who I can’t stop staring at.